2013 : I’ll Just Say, Fare Thee Well.
And just like that, 2013 walked out of our lives forever. It was a year marked by sporadic blog entries and I can’t promise that 2014 will be any different but I will do my best to stay somewhat active.
So what have I been doing? In short, I’ve been doing my best to focus on my health. That means yoga once a week and running. My diet has gone slightly to shit but I am aware and making efforts to get it back on track. Overall, the physical is stable and I am extremely thankful for that. Running has been the constant in my life, I think I may be a tad burned out but I am still moving forward and isn’t that the name of the game? I have struggled a little with motivation since New York but I am still getting out at least 4 days a week. In the middle of December it came to a halt for a few days, I actually took an unplanned break from running, for get this…5 FULL days. Crazy I know, but to put it into perspective, after NYC I only took 3 days off. I don’t know if I ever mentioned my mileage stretch goal for 2013? I know that the 1,100 mile goal was declared but the stretch goal of 1,250 started coming into focus once I chose my training program for NYC. Well after New York I took it a bit easy. Then the 5 day hiatus coupled with the decline in total weekly mileage, I was doing my best to let that goal slip away. With just 11 days left in December I still had 51 miles to run and two holidays. I kept thinking…1,200 is so AWESOME …I was trying to be content with the total I had already reached. 51 miles in 11 days just seemed overwhelming.
So rewind to the holidays, usually my favorite part of the year because it’s a time for family and friends but life changed a lot for me in 2013 and the holidays slapped me across the face with the weight of it all. November was probably the most insane month in my life, I literally went from completing the New York City Marathon, one of my highest moments, to one of my lowest. I don’t share too much personal information and I don’t plan to share much more than the next paragraph because words would fail the emotion and the person.
I was in a relationship with a woman for over 9 years, someone who I loved completely and cherished as a partner but most of all as my best friend. In mid November it became clear that our expectations for the relationship were not in alignment and that it was time to really go our separate ways. The lesson of the year for me was that no matter how much effort you put in, or how bad you want something, the outcome is not always reflected in the end result. Things don’t always work out as planned. I am doing my best to accept that I gave the relationship my all and that I can’t control the outcome, especially when someone else’s hopes and dreams are part of the equation. I continue to adjust my perspective and focus on the positives. The positives are my friends, new and old, and family that have helped make the transition better and instilled confidence. The reality is that I am thankful for the relationship, she made me a better person and I hope I did the same for her. Either way, time passes whether I like it or not and I’m slowly getting a handle on life as a single person. Doing my best to reform good habits and handle things the right way. It’s a big change in my life and I would be remiss to not share even the vaguest of details.
Running has definitely become therapy, hours on the road or trail with nothing but some background music and my thoughts. As we all know, this can either be really great or really frustrating but overall its amazing because there is no “running away” from your thoughts, you have to face them. So now to turn the focus back to 1,250, I realized I was making excuses and trying my best to whither away 2013. The goal just needed to be addressed, it was absolutely something that I could and would do. I set a loose plan with 11 days left and on December 31 I set out for a trail run in the middle of the desert with 5.3 miles separating me from my goal. The best way to describe the entire run was grueling but rewarding, just like the other 1,245 miles leading up to it. I put in a lot of work this year and although it didn’t show itself in terms of expected results, the other benefits were well-earned. I am in great shape and have my overall health to show for every mile, for that I am continually thankful. I don’t know what
2014 has in store for me I have in store for 2014 but I plan on making the best possible decisions with my opportunities.
One decision I have made for 2014 is to start doing more volunteer and charity work. I have already signed up as a snow mentor for Stoked and this week I decided to do One Run For Boston. A fundraising relay across America that benefits those impacted by the Boston bombing. Amy over at Lavender Parking reminded me about the relay via her blog post and it only took a few minutes to make a decision. I will be running Stage 6 at about midnight in a questionable part of town so it should be interesting! If you would like to donate a couple of dollars then follow this link…One Run For Boston.